Have you ever had one of those moments where you realize that you’ve learned something big, and you need to get it out so that you don’t forget about it? That’s how right now feels.
I’m reminded once again, and yet it never ceases to amaze me, that God is not only holy, but whole. He is complete, unchanging. He never has to learn or unlearn anything. He is never broken, never having to work toward a deeper level of intelligence, maturity. He always has been, always is, and always will be. He is the Great I AM. Everything He does has a purpose, and that purpose is always the same in all of those who love Him: good. He works all things together for good. That passage in Romans also goes on to say that we were predestined to be conformed to the image of Jesus.
What is good? God is good. And God is whole. And since Jesus is God, and we are to be conformed to His image, we’re being conformed to wholeness. God tells us that in Jeremiah: His plans for us are for wholeness, not for evil. I’m realizing that more and more. Wholeness is good. Because of sin, we’re fragmented beings; we can’t always put all the pieces together like God can. And we can never attain complete wholeness apart from Him. We often can’t understand how flat tires, or cancer, or divorce, or loss, or betrayal, or any other difficulty can possibly be used for good, especially in the midst of those situations. But they are meant to bring us to wholeness: to develop in us patience, trust, faith, peace… if we let them. In other words, if we choose to believe the truth: that God will keep in perfect peace the one who trusts in Him; that if we are not anxious but thankfully bring everything to Him in prayer, He’ll give us unexplainable peace.
It’s times like right now where I see God obviously working in my life that I’m reminded that He’s always at work, and that there’s always a purpose in what He does—and that that purpose is for good. I’m taking a class on educational psychology right now, and also going through training to be a volunteer at DayBreak, a pregnancy resource center. It’s amazing how the material I’m simultaneously learning in the two experiences correlates with one another. And it’s amazing how something I learned through personal Bible study a few months ago pops up and I see its application in a new light, referring to a different situation. Man, this is good stuff! I just get so excited about learning, especially how it pertains to how God is working in my life. His timing is just so spot on. And these times will help me to remember that in other times when I just can’t see it—when I just can’t see how something could possibly be used for good, or could possibly happen at the right time.
Ugh, I am just bursting. I can’t contain it and feel like I could write a whole book about this stuff. And again, I’m thankful for times like these, because I know it’s not all the time I’ll feel this way. I haven’t always felt this way. But getting excited about truth motivates me to remember the power of truth even when the feelings aren’t there. And often times, focusing on the truth will help turn emotions around. When I focus on truth, on God, I remember that I don’t have to get angry, or worried, or depressed. And then peace comes, like God promises it will. There’s a C.S. Lewis quotes that talks about this that I just love:
“If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end; if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth only soft soap and wishful thinking to begin, and in the end, despair.”
Mmm, good stuff. Not always easy to remember, because our natural inclination—I know my natural inclination—is to pout and worry and say, “Why, God, why?” in those difficult moments. But if we think hard enough, we know the answer: for our good, to make us more like Jesus—to bring us toward wholeness.