God is so good.
I’m doing a Beth Moore Bible study on the tabernacle called “A Woman’s Heart.” I just love Beth Moore. 🙂 Today’s lesson talked about how Jesus put on sin so we could put on righteousness. In an exchange, He put on sin to make robes of righteousness available to us. Beth talked about “wearing our new self, rather than allowing our robes of righteousness to hang in the closet..” saying that the key to this is “to be made new in the attitude of your minds” (Ephesians 4:23). She says, “We are new creatures in Christ; but if we still think like the old creature, we will find it impossible to personify the new. Most of our wars are fought on the battlefield of the mind.” So true. I could identify with this so much, especially lately. If you read my last post, you can understand why I say that. She also mentions Romans 12:2, which I found especially encouraging today. You also know this if you’ve seen my latest facebook post. 😉
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. (Now, this part coming up was what I found especially comforting.) Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.”
Over the past week, I had been fighting a battle in my mind. One I thought I was winning, but turns out I wasn’t as successful as I thought. It was so tempting for me to conform to the pattern of this world–to buy into such a worldly way of thinking, that I deserved what my heart so longed for. And because certain things were true, that must mean I was meant to get it, according to worldly thinking. I wasn’t being transformed by the renewing of my mind. Not truly. I kept giving it over to God, but kept finding myself falling into that same trap of thinking that way. God is so good, though. I can’t pinpoint when it was. Maybe it was while talking to my great friend Maya, who is always good for talking some sense into me. 😉 But at some point this weekend, it just hit me. What I was longing for so much, it wasn’t God’s will. It isn’t. Not right now, anyway, and probably ever. But I can’t think, “Well, maybe, in the future…” because what if that doesn’t happen? All I know is that right now, this isn’t what God has for me. And that’s all I need to know. And I am truly content with that. Because I’ve come to the point that if it’s not what God wants, it’s not what I want. I’ve come to the point where I’ve been able to test and approve what God’s will is–and this isn’t it. If what I was wanting so badly happened, I don’t believe it would be pleasing to God. I don’t believe it would be His perfect will. And knowing that didn’t come until I released my desire and chose to renew my mind and think with the mind of Christ. And God honored that. He gave me a peace, the kind that only comes from Him.
Thank You, Heavenly Father. It is such a blessing to be Your child, to call You my Father, to know that You are real and present and care about Your children, and bless their obedience. Your ways are good.